Trust Issues

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It’s been increasingly harder for me to trust. I thought I had my lessons in this space long ago, but here I am today having a familiar conversation with myself. I’ve tried to trace back to a time where I can remember losing trust in something or someone. I couldn’t pinpoint any one particular experience, it was more so a series of collective experiences over my lifetime.

How do I rebuild trust?

Well first I have to understand what exactly have I lost trust in. Was it trusting from an external or an internal source. I decided to start with my internal or inner trust. That is intimate reflection within me and no one else. Much of my distrust is rooted in me not trusting myself to make the right decisions, not having seen things for what they truly were, and not recognizing ill-will in others fast enough.

Before I can rebuild my sense of trust in others I first have to start uplifting that for me. Included in this rebuilding process is forgiveness and discernment. Forgiving myself for past transgressions with trust. In addition to strengthening my discernment muscle. I guess I really mean balancing that energy, as I want to be able to discern people, places, and things without becoming too rigid.

Balancing that energy between head and heart isn’t easy. Reframing my mindset is a major piece of this inner journey. It’s going to take me leaping forward in faith and taking risks with others to regain what I have lost. Ultimately its my internal belief system that will help restore the trust I have for myself and then eventually with others.

I am starting with the affirmation “I deserve to be around trustworthy people”. I am manifesting aligning myself with people and experiences that are trustworthy.