Letter To My Past
My Second Birthday with Grandpa
Lately I’ve been in a deeply reflective state about my life. The new moon just passing yesterday has me feeling more pressure to let go of the past and embrace the future. I tried to pinpoint what’s triggering those feelings within me. I will say it is my growth and me fully healing some traumas over the last few months. I still have a few things to let go of, and I am intentionally working on that over the next few weeks.
The best release is writing and being vulnerable enough to open up about our struggles. Here is a letter to my past.
Dear Past,
I am so happy to finally have escaped you and to be living in the present. I remember living under dark clouds for what felt like an eternity. Rain and thunderstorms flooding my heart and dancing in puddles on my spirit. For a while I could not foresee your time expiring with me. I spun around in circles trying to lose you like a car in a high speed chase. You consistently provided me with shit I never ever asked for. Nothing worked, not even prayer and fake love. The control you held over my every move and thought was debilitating. I wont hide you, but I am not willing to reminisce with you anymore.
One day I woke up and you were gone, but you frequently visited during certain phases of my life. I have finally arrived at a safe space. You are no longer able to follow me and attempt to ruin my days. I am refusing to have coffee with you to catch up on old times. You are merely a book filled with chapters of countless lessons. That book has provided me with specific intel that shaped the woman I am right this moment. I now celebrate those lessons.
Thank you for the resilience and practice I’ve lived through. My quest for personal mastery has been so enlightening. Walking into an ultra sensitive space of self awareness has shifted my entire being. I have grown to understand myself and life on levels that I pray those around me can reach. I am healing and cultivating lifestyle changes that will push me further in the direction GOD has created for me. This path is full of sunshine and it is well lit. I am steady moving forward never looking back again.
Sincerely,
Present Self
XOXO