Beatitude

IT WAS 6AM AND I WAS SITTING INDIAN STYLE DRINKING HAZELNUT COFFEE IN THE MIDDLE OF MY LIVING ROOM. I HAVE TO BE AT WORK WITHIN THE NEXT HOUR, YET I HAD ONLY GOTTEN AS FAR AS PUTTING ON MY UNDERWEAR AND BRA. WHICH DIDN'T MATCH BY THE WAY. EACH SIP MY THOUGHTS BECAME DEEPER AND DEEPER, I STARTED TO THINK ABOUT WHAT TRULY MAKES PEOPLE HAPPY. MORE IMPORTANTLY WHAT MADE ME HAPPY.

THINKING IF IT WAS MONEY, A NEW CAR, OR WORK. PERHAPS, IT WAS EATING A BOX OF OREOS AT 10PM BECAUSE I HAD A SUDDEN SWEET TOOTH. MAYBE IT WAS THAT TIME I STAYED UP TILL 5 AM WITH MY EX TALKING ABOUT LIFE AND LISTENING TO MUSIC. OR THAT NIGHT MY GIRL FRIENDS AND I WENT TO OUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT AND I OVERLOADED ON GLASSES OF PROSECCO. MAYBE IT’S THE DAYS I COME HOME AND SIT IN SOLITUDE AND THINK ABOUT MY LIFE.

ULTIMATELY, ALL OF THESE HAVE MADE ME HAPPY, BUT WHAT TRULY MAKES ME HAPPY IS KNOWING WHAT I WANT IN LIFE. SPEAKING MY TRUTH, TREATING PEOPLE WITH RESPECT AND DIGNITY, AND GETTING THE SAME IN RETURN. IT WAS NEVER ABOUT THE IDEA OF A NEW CAR OR BUYING THREE PAIRS OF NEW SHOES ON PAYDAY. IT’S MY CONNECTION TO THE WORLD. IT’S APPRECIATING HOW I GET UP EVERYDAY AND GET TO CONNECT WITH SOMEONE SOMEWHERE. THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY.