Mirror You, Mirror Me
I remember the first time I read about twin flame connections. I’ve always been intrigued about soul mates, but this was something way different. It was said that when you meet your twin flame you will notice parts of you that mirror their inner and outer selves on a deeper level.
It’s been 400 days since I was first connected to my twin flame. I was completely unaware until a few weeks ago during some heavy introspection. I lost him because I had not evolved to my authentic self nor had I faced those dark parts of me. I secretly blamed him the entire time for not being ready, but all along it was me. That realization lead to some very uncomfortable thoughts and questions I had to ask myself. I had to look in the mirror, he was my mirror.
It’s crazy how another person can bring out the good parts of you along with the bad. This man mirrored everything I needed to face within myself and all the things I had been ignoring for years. Things were revealed to me in the worst way, it was one of the most challenging experiences of my life. I was pushed into my shadow work. Many of the emotions I felt were being experienced for the very first time in my adult life. Everything from my inner child discovery, to facing trauma I had swept under the rug, to habits I had developed in defense to the world.
The things I saw in him were a direct reflection of myself. I was challenged to acknowledge my lack of vulnerability, fear of attachment, fear of abandonment, and issues with self worth. I thought I was doing all the right things and leveling up. Truth is I struggled with communicating my needs and expressing my wants in intimate spaces. I began looking at myself from a different lens and understanding myself deeply. This unlocked a level of self-love I didn’t know existed for me. Being with him allowed for more personal growth and me finding the path to my authentic self. I hope that I in return sparked something in him that is equally leading him to self actualization.
I feel extreme gratitude about reaching this level of healing and self awareness. Human connection is one of the greatest things we get the pleasure to experience in this lifetime. Cherish it!