#GETYOURSHITTOGETHER

I was having a conversation the other day about life and was asked some very loaded questions. They asked “At what point does wanting to get your life together become excessive? Does that pressure force you to not take the steps to accomplish your goals or lead to depression when you fail at achieving those goals? At what point are you just going to be happy with where you are at the current moment?

After thinking about this for a few moments I smiled, because I was finally in a space in my life where answering a question of this magnitude was easy for me.

When I think about getting my life together it could never be obsessive to me. It’s important to me and I think about it a lot. I feel like at every phase of my life and every set of goals I accomplish I level up to the next set of goals.  Thinking back on goals I had two years ago looks very different from the goals I currently have. My personal mission is to keep reaching higher and higher. It can never be something that’s too excessive to think about.

I am steadily wanting and trying to improve and evolve into a better human being, a better woman, and experience the best life that I possibly can. Those dynamics constantly change as I get older, come in contact with different people, places and experiences.  I can talk about getting my life together until I am blue in the face. I am like most people I struggle and deal with depression and anxiety. I think those feelings surface when I am not producing and achieving my goals fast enough or in the way that I initially envisioned. In those moments I become overwhelmed and feel this intense pressure to work harder. I am my own worst critic and tend to be extremely hard on myself. I will admit these phases are unhealthy and draining, but underneath it gives me the focus and motivation I need to keep pushing forward. I try to align myself with people who feel just like me and are on similar paths this helps the process feel less mundane.

This is the first time in my life that I have been this happy. Years ago I wasn’t happy and I didn’t know why or what was causing that feeling. Even worse I was unsure of what I needed to do to get out of that rut. I realized it was never an external feeling. It was being happy within myself and feeling happy about my achievements and the life I have lived. Once the feeling clicked in my head my life changed, my heart changed, and the way I moved changed. I handled difficult situations better and with a clear head and I began to experience what life had to offer me. I am happy and still I want more out of my life. I know life has so much more to offer.

I am at the point in my life where I want to experience new things and revisit some old things with a new mindset. 

Obsessed about life
xoxo

Chanel